3 Things

1) Why the fuck is it snowing?!?

2) I washed my jeans yesterday, which is a rare occurrence, and the washing machine sucked balls, leaving a large deposit of still liquid Tide on the crotchal region. I can STILL smell flowers emanating from my wang. All freaking day, it's like the uber cologne. Alma (coworker) said it was hard to breath with her mouth open by me cos she could taste it. Yes, she could taste my crotch in the air. This better fade soon, cos I don't like having a floral dick.

3) I hate people who feel the need to pull their cell phone away from their ear and speak into the screen. They are designed to pick up your voice optimally while it is held in the normal position. Hell, the antenna are even designed to work better when you hold them normally. Do you even know where the microphone is?! It's in the bottom, the part that is already by your mouth. They can't hear you better when you take it away from your head and talk at the speaker. In fact, you know what?!? Then you can't even hear what they're saying. And they can probably hear you worse than they could before. But I can hear you better, cos now you have to speak louder. Fucking dumbass.

Let's make a list

Reasons to stay in school

• Masters Degree looks pretty good


• Learning is good


• Living without student loans requires fulltime job


• I like animating

Reasons to drop out of school

• I hate software development. This degree is focused on software development


• I'm very happy with my current job (which was the point of going back to school in the first place)


• There is no degree at DePaul for exactly what I'm looking for. This is close, but it still results in tons of coding


• I'm pretty sure I'd be better off using my free time to take a flash course, read a CSS book, and focus solely on the skills I want to build


• I will have to pay these loans back eventually

So, I think I'm gonna call the folks later today and have a nice chat. Because I have been tossing this around for a while, and really, I think my original reasons for going to grad school have been lost.


Things I look for in a girl

• the list doesn't really need to be made. You are the things I look for in a girl. This will make sense eventually, I promise

Remember when we used to love this shit?

Open iTunes (or Windows Media Player, etc) to answer the following. Go to your library. Answer, no matter how embarrasing it is.

How many songs? 5300 (yes, exactly)

Sort by song title:
First Song: A-List Actress ~ Hey Mercedes
Last Song: 45223 ~ Drop Dead Gorgeous

Sort by time:
Shortest Song: My Cat's Name Is Maceo (0:04) ~ Jane's Addiction
Longest Song: Jacob Van Lennepkade II (18:40) ~ Omar Rodriguez Lopez

Sort by album:
First Album: [A-->B] Life ~ mewithoutyou
Last Album: 90125 ~ Yes

Top Five Most Played Songs:
1: Bramafatura ~ 3
2: One Way Town ~ 3
3: Trust ~ 3
4: Dogs of War ~ 3
5: Wake Pig ~ 3
(I think the stats are a bit off here... probably something to do with recreating my iTunes library and the fact that only songs bought off the iTunes store retained their play counts)

First song that comes up on Shuffle?
Still More Fighting ~ Nobuo Uematsu

How many songs come up when you search for "sex"? 23

How many songs come up when you search for "death"? 120

How many songs come up when you search for "love"? 226

How many songs come up when you search for "you"? 649

Gold lion's gonna tell me where the light is

My mom came out for dinner Thursday to finally use the coupon I gave her for Christmas. Yes, I still give coupons redeemable for time with me. You only wish you had one.

I must say, I have one of the coolest moms to ever exist. For two and a half hours, we ate, drank, and talked. Never a lull in conversation, touching on any and all topics. I had a great time, and it kinda made me realize how lucky I am to have such an awesome relationship with my parents.

Last night, Steve, Kels, Nathan, and myself went out and met up with Amber, Holly, Jordan, and Chuck (yea, I don't know Chuck either... I think his name was Chuck) at the Gold Star up on Division. It was a lovely bar, riding the line of dive bar with just enough class (and a pretty sweet juke box). Somewhere around 2am, we left and got tacos at this hole-in-the-wall place up there (pasaldo...or something) that had probably the best tacos I have ever eaten. Amazing.

I love this city.

I miss her, but I still don't know what to do.

Sirens are just part of the city

People change. It's a simple fact that no one can deny. It's not necessarily a change for the better or worse, but simply an evolution of character.

In a romantic relationship, the couple changes and grows together. But in a long distance relationship, the guidance that ushers growth in the same path is much more difficult to come by.

It's not the I stopped loving her, or her me. Chances are, that will never truly happen. But the admission by both parties that something just wasn't there anymore was enough.

I've spent the last 4 years of my life completely integrating her into every aspect of my life, and despite the fact that the only direct change is a missing phone call each night, I'm going to desperately miss sharing my day with her.

When a relationship ends on good terms, because of nobody's 'fault', you can't help but be overly optimistic. But god dammit, if I know one thing, it's that life without her wouldn't be half as enriching or fulfilling. She's my best friend. She was before, and she will be still. Things will have to change, but there's no way to cut her out of my life and still feel like that life is my own.

That's all.